Who.

Today I am here to rant about someone who will remain nameless.
You're extremely vain and shallow.
You're very ignorant to the wrong actions you commit towards your closest friends.
You try to keep this image of yourself as a sex symbol of sorts but it's so unrealistic at this age.
It's okay for people to see a picture of you full-out smiling, not just a sexy pout that is promiscuous.
Get over yourself, honestly you're not even 18-not close to a lady.
If your photo id looks bad, thats okay.
Stop being so concerned with image and more about the warmth inside one's person.

i want:

• iPad
• Nikon D50
• Nikon CoolPix
• New Job
• Tanned skin
• Pale skin
• School to be over
• New models for some shoots
• Volunteer at an Old Folk's Home
• Volunteer at a daycare
• Volunteer at my old school
• Drink hot chocolate
• Have a good day at work
• Work out, lose 10 pounds
• Clean my room
• Write a song
• Do well on my seminar
• Visit Toronto
• Ignore people at North who hate me but still seem to let them affect me
• Get out of Barrie
• Read 10 philosophy books by the end of summer
• Learn about Buddhism, Paganism, Atheism, Taoism, Confucianism, Christianity
• Get a really nice new bunch of clothes
• Get a new job in september
• Be as kind as possible to those who deserve it
• Vow to not be anonymous on this Formspring nonsense.
• Love those who need it
• Do my chores
• Ignore tabloid ads
• Continue to not soil my face with make up
• 20 new tops
• 3 pairs of jeans
• Pratice make-up technique
• new shoes

random rant

I don't know many things about myself except for my ethnicity and I say a lot of the wrong things. I am scared and nervous for the future and what is to come. Most likely what I fear won't come is more scary to me at the moment.

I wish I had the ability to wear a natural face and have a naturally thin figure but I know that won't happen anytime soon. I don't even like thin girls yet I want to be one because it is better than this.

I want to be naturally good at math and be a naturally good writer.

I hate the song "naturally" by Selena Gomez. I hate what the Disney channel turned into.
I wish I didn't buy this one pair of jeans because now they just make me look horrible. They were only $40.00 but still, I could have gotten something else.

600-800$

Worst day possible. I realized in all the chaos that ensued my mind that my future involves a camera and a lot of passion. Mostly hard work and money though but, isn't that a given?

U.S.S lyrics

If your heart only knew

What I was thinking

You'd be thinking it too maybe

And if your brain only knew

What I was feeling

You'd be feeling it too maybe

I lit a candle and picked me up a pen

I tried expressing this over and again

I sat for hours staring at a page

And all I wrote was

P.S. I can change

P.S. I can change

Please let me change

Please I can change

And if my circles were cubes

I'd be building a foundation with you

With space as mortar

And if this spark only knew

The fire it started

Would it be hotter than you

Not quite

I lit a candle and picked me up a pen

I tried expressing this over and again

I sat for hours staring at a page

And all I wrote was

P.S. I can change

calendar girl

I dreamed I was dying as I so often do.

I wake up and sigh, go outside.

I looked up to the sky and say;

"Whoever is up there, please don't let me die."

my favorite book.

He's my favorite book, his eyes are the deepest symbols that can represent what he holds true.

His mouth speaks kind words full of promise, love and tender care.

His heartbeat gives me a nostalgic head rush full of happy moments I had nearly forgotten about with my family.

He is the only person I can lay down with and sleep beside. He doesn't mind if I drool either.

My parents discourage me at times from him, every time they speak ill of him, my heart hurts because I want them to see how he makes me feel. I paint, I take pictures, I draw, but he makes me care.

Look for someone who makes you feel this good, it will be worth all the waiting and searching.