random rant

I don't know many things about myself except for my ethnicity and I say a lot of the wrong things. I am scared and nervous for the future and what is to come. Most likely what I fear won't come is more scary to me at the moment.

I wish I had the ability to wear a natural face and have a naturally thin figure but I know that won't happen anytime soon. I don't even like thin girls yet I want to be one because it is better than this.

I want to be naturally good at math and be a naturally good writer.

I hate the song "naturally" by Selena Gomez. I hate what the Disney channel turned into.
I wish I didn't buy this one pair of jeans because now they just make me look horrible. They were only $40.00 but still, I could have gotten something else.

600-800$

Worst day possible. I realized in all the chaos that ensued my mind that my future involves a camera and a lot of passion. Mostly hard work and money though but, isn't that a given?

U.S.S lyrics

If your heart only knew

What I was thinking

You'd be thinking it too maybe

And if your brain only knew

What I was feeling

You'd be feeling it too maybe

I lit a candle and picked me up a pen

I tried expressing this over and again

I sat for hours staring at a page

And all I wrote was

P.S. I can change

P.S. I can change

Please let me change

Please I can change

And if my circles were cubes

I'd be building a foundation with you

With space as mortar

And if this spark only knew

The fire it started

Would it be hotter than you

Not quite

I lit a candle and picked me up a pen

I tried expressing this over and again

I sat for hours staring at a page

And all I wrote was

P.S. I can change

calendar girl

I dreamed I was dying as I so often do.

I wake up and sigh, go outside.

I looked up to the sky and say;

"Whoever is up there, please don't let me die."